Wait, they don't love you like I love you

Red Hightops.

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 14:58:51 GMT

That is what I got last night, while shopping at midnight.. the shopping in ohio is amazing, 24h shops, and malls on every fourth street. My uncles wedding was last night, we got lost on the way there (me,my aunt, the bride&her maid of honor) so we were 10 minutes late(haha). So now they're at a hotel, my aunt&i are staying at their house for the night instead of our hotel&im not even sure if my aunt is home right now. But anyway, I've got most of the gifts I was planning on getting for people, except my sister really. Arcade tonight, Columbus Zoo&Shopping tomorrow, leave Tuesday morning. Expect me back Tuesday around 6 =).

OHH, and last night we went out to dinner (22 people that were at their wedding) at Mortons.. this fancy shmancy restaraunt where it is $200 a plate(american). I actually took pictures of my plate.. because my mom would never believe I ate what I'm going to say I ate. oo..all this talk of food..
Breakfast time, I'm STARVED.
<3

5 days until i go back to that prison cell

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 15:25:57 GMT

Ohh it's that time again, school's out for summer, BUT SCHOOL'S BACK FOR THE NEXT 3 SEASONS. Ohh well, it's been fun. I went white water rafting yesterday morning, funnest time i've ever had in 3 hours. My ass is bruised and my finger has a hole in it, but my skin feels smooth. Once I get the photos developed I'll show the ones of Becky, Karen, Darcy, Brandon, Cory & I on the mud slide, it was disgusting but amazing! Definatly worth the... $67.54 I paid. Andrew and I spoke last night, weird eh? 7 or 8 months of not speaking, and we spoke, it was cool but he was a bit nervous. Also I called Mike last night... Mike Bysouth.. everybody at my school calls him "Jesus". It was hilarious because I had a high off my mom & my migraine pills, so of course he saw the dumbass me. Anyway, today Daddy & I are going to ride the motorcycle out to the ocean and drive along it for a while, it calms me. He's been trying lately not to drink as much, I think it's because I finally told him I was just about ready to leave, maybe that's why.
Anyway, time for me to go. Call sometime, 671-2161, or if i'm not home... 890-0050.
-Me

My Cousin's Wedding

Mon, 12 Jul 2004 14:46:25 GMT

howdy, I just got back last night from.. 5 straight days of being away from home, and man am I glad to be back, I missed my bed, last night i slept from 11:45 until 10:45, almost ten hours.
Anyway, I got pictures, stupid ones of moi and adorable ones of the wedding, so here goes.

Me signing the guest book, second one, woo!

My hair, this was just before i got changed for the afterparty.

and this is me, AFTER the after party, glowstick around my neck and i am wyped! (4am)

Cutting&Eating of the cake.

I got them to pose.. I mean how fucking cute are they? =)

Equilibrium

Tue, 06 Jul 2004 22:17:50 GMT

This is just me, regretting little things I can't change. Draw my name in the mist...

And all i want to do is breakdown

Muffled cries,
Of my devotion,
I hear no sounds,
There's no emotion from you.
You leave me here to die,
And you read my mind and did it for me.

You breathe softly on the window; my heart skips a beat and your fingers crack as you draw my name in the mist. The clock ticks, my ears ring, you stare into the nothingness of the night. I stare at the porch light where a moth is fluttering freely. Its wing hits the bulb and we are showered with darkness.
Reminds me of the days when we were young, so young and adventurous. Nowadays it is all flashing ligths and voodoo dolls, what happened to the days of verbal speech, what happened to our equilibrium.

Canada Day

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 19:05:23 GMT

beach with robyn, what a cutie!

Theme parks are anti-climax

Fri, 25 Jun 2004 11:21:14 GMT

Well my exams were all done as of monday the 21st, haven't really done anything since, except yesterday when my youth group went to Upper Clements Park. I've gone there twice a summer every year for about.. 6 years, so it was completely anti-climax. I was actually bored during most of it, except the Log Flume, that ride never gets old. On the way home all I really wanted to do was sleep and listen to my music but no, Natalie (youth group leader.. lady) decides to listen to country or icky rap, instead of christian rock, and she's the minister of a church, some people. Ohh well, it wasn't a bad day, but I did get burnt and miss Dom. Ohh well, I'm back now, and have more money than ever.

Been working a bit, got $40 from mom, and dad sold the jeep so.. I'll get my $400 or $300, whatever it is, soon enough. So right now, in this money box of mine i've got.. about $220, soon to be more, much more. And I called my aunt last night so she's going to call me back sometime in the next week (i'm guessing) about it (trip). In the time being I'm pretty sure I'm going to get my passport, actually I might get it tomorrow.. the parents plan on taking me to windsor or something to go to my cousin's cottage, as long as i get to sleep, and talk to dom on the phone at LEAST once while i'm there, i'll be fine. Start work in about 2 weeks, be happy everyone. Well this was a long post, ohh well, it makes up for lack of writing for the past week.

haaaave fun at the chillis!

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 01:28:01 GMT

rawr!!! I am so very jealous of you right now blueberry pie (dominic). While you were waiting for the concert to start, I WAS SLEEPING ON SOME RANDOM PERSON'S COUCH! haha, i hope you are having the tiiiiiime of your life, without me, sniffle. UNTIL LATE AUGUST, in which you will have the time of your life, over and over and over again. I started working today for my parents, was gardening for mother for 2h tonight, i've got so many bug bites but hey, for $20 it is worth it!! Dad is going to pay me to do work for him as well, aaaand i may have a job at my neighbors landscaping place in dartmouth. MONEY FINALLY. And i'm doing a damn good job of saving it. I convinced dad to pay for my graduation trip to Europe, that means i've only got to pay for my trip this year, next, then dom comes here, then DADDY PAYS. well i hope you didn't waste your time reading this if you aren't dom, or one of my close friends, because otherwise i'm sure you truly don't give a shit. =D i do.

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 21:03:37 GMT

aaaaaand join no_preps, c'est belle.</span>

For he who my heart belongs to.

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 20:33:20 GMT

I'm sorry for the way I act when I don't know what to say,
I'm sorry for the things you feel knowing we're so far away.
I'm sorry for my sensitivity, how I can't help but cry,
I'm sorry for not being there, and for always asking why.
I'm sorry for writing you these words you hate to see,
I'm sorry for ever doubting you, if that ever had come to be.
And i'm sorry for the way that I can never make you smile, For the way my heart trembles as I think of all the extra miles.

And i'm sorry if I ever let you down.

life

Sun, 23 May 2004 17:13:12 GMT

I went to my sister's yesterday for most of the day and hung out with my niece, she is a month and a week now. :)
I'll post some pictures. I was holding her for 2 hours straight, she was sleeping the whole time as I was thinking. What a relaxing way to spend a couple hours.. Anyway, today is Mine and Dom's 3 month mark, congradulations us! Although I haven't spoken to him yet.. I miss him truly, i do. Well, that's enough for today.
Pic Post.

get it, rockin robyn, rocking chair, Robyn! Yes, so i'm sad. ook at her little feet.

She was so cuddly.

sound asleep outside in the garden in her stroller.

roarrrr.

Wed, 19 May 2004 17:55:26 GMT

haha, grease play last night, that was so good, i got tons of pictues, woohoo! I'll post them once i upload them, because i suck and am lazy =/. Hmm, dom left on mondayyyyy morning, but for me you know, last talked to him on sunday night, HE COMES BACK TODAY! Thank jebus, I had nothing of a life while he was gone, NOTHING! I had a goodish day, except my UTERUS hurts and i juuuust told my teacher =/. ANYWAY. I want juice, someone get me juice? dom? blue juice please? please? I should go, still have to .. ahh shit i'll be late getting home tonight because my bus is going to pick me up 20 minutes late, ack. I'll be home around... 20 to 5 or some such thing. Well, see you kids later, i've got to update this sucker more often.
<3 moi.

ooo ooo ooo

Fri, 14 May 2004 15:27:21 GMT

GREASE. The musical. Our school. EQUALS CRAP.
Holy lord it was hilarious this morning at break, Dwayne, some mentally handicapped kid in grade 10 was a police officer in the grease play and they were rehearsing, so he was up on the stage dancing around for an hour, not even supposed to be. God it was hilarious, where is your camera when you need it? Oh, and in first class "Big Mike" was playing around with the EP for the sound system and somehow got it to play into OUR classroom.. uhh, he said "FUCK YOU" and "shit!" and "check, check, check", he said that one about 35 times, ohh yes, it was funny while it lasted.

Last night I called dom, around 5:30(9:30) because my mother wouldn't get off of the phone earlier, but yeah, I could not stop laughing, I laughed at everything. I even laughed at silence. The poor thing, I'm sorry you had to endure my stupidity =P.
P.S. You really should try to lay on your hand the way I do while talking on the phone to me =/. haha.

Post again tonight, i think. Friday, yay, I get to talk for a while. =) Bye now, i'm off to watch the grease rehearsal.

Wed, 12 May 2004 15:22:50 GMT

Nothing really has happened between yesterday morning and now, except a few laughs and a lot of dancing alone in my room to Muse. Oh, and maybe some printing off of certain pictures dom? haha. Well it is now lunch, and I am at school, sadly. I am thinking about calling dom cuz you know, my phone cards are nice and such. I might do that.. maybe! Or just when i get home, because I miss your voice..
What the hell, i smell like soap. It's not a bad smell but it's annoying. Urgh! Kind of smells like plastic. Aaanyway, really nothing to say. <3 Should have a picpost within the next two days.

ATV ride.

Sun, 09 May 2004 17:40:14 GMT

Well this afternoon I went on the ATV, dad used his friends and we went for an hour and a half, you don't want to see the pictures of me where I am totally drenched in mud so I will show a couple I took along the way.

zee lake, I love it, this is where I go canoeing, today it was too rough for that so I just sat on the dock.

Ohh, what is this? Me sitting on the dock! And yes it is sinking =/ Poor thing has been that way for a year.

As soon as we got across some random bridge, we saw a pony! So of course being the nice country people we are, we went over to pet it. =)

I have a thing for clouds, okay? I thought they were perdy.

Fri, 07 May 2004 20:34:57 GMT

new favourite album.

Whats the story morning glory.
Oasis.

as the clock strikes 3.

Wed, 05 May 2004 19:56:39 GMT

Our planet is beautiful, why do we have to ruin it with high-speed vehicles and so many power plants. Curl up with a book instead of watching tv. I'm not telling you to leave your computer though, as long as you leave the blinds open so you can see out to the beautiful world around us. I sometimes wonder how the world could survive without certain beings. Ones who keep us in line, but love us all the better.
This has been Meaghan's random thought for the day. I feel great things approaching, be prepared my lovelies, be prepared. =)

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 15:52:37 GMT

EDIT/
no one ever comments on my entries, just realised. Ohh well.

Last night was amazing, I can't even believe... ack. Things seem so impossible until they happen, how do they happen, why do they happen? I guess some things are just unexplainable, but to be able to feel them! I know most of you have no clue what I am talking about but.. hey, what can I say? I'm in love and I never want to fall out, I don't even think I can fall out...
Time to say bye to the internet at school for today.
Update later tonight when I get home.
Somethings are just too good to NOT be true.
Don't doubt something if it seems too good, people say to, don't they? People don't know what I have. If you doubt it you make shake things up.. don't take that chance.

Robyn Melissa Dearman.

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 23:50:07 GMT

My neice, I uploaded a couple pictures finally. <3

Me holding Robyn, 3 days old.

Mommy and baby.^^^

Robyn, 6 days old.

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 21:01:43 GMT

Last night i ran off on him, because i didn't know what to do. I guess I didn't think of it as running off on him, but running off on me. I wanted to know what was wrong.. I wanted to be there to help him but I guess he just didn't want to tell and just needed me there. That is where i mess up, I need to just be there, even if i don't know. You can bet I won't make that mistake again. I've just been having a couple of bad days, and I didn't make it easier for him.
I got a calling card, i am equipped for such long conversations as may happen. We need one.
Now darrin what is this about your site being all, meaghan themed? You're 12. And I'm in love. You can be quite obsessive by times you know? You're a cool kid but.. ack. And this poem? It better just be about the hilarious phone call last night while i was playing pool with mom, or i'm going to have to shoot your eyes out because you barely know me, and to be making things seem like they aren't, i don't think you have the right.

soon.

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 19:51:49 GMT

i feel like crap.
I try to understand things, sometimes it just doesn't seem to work.
i'm here for you always, please take me up on the offer.
Things will be better for you soon, i promise...

<3

high school ack.

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 22:27:14 GMT

Doing my course selections, there are like 11 sheets to choose from. >.< I am taking... English 10, Drama 10, Science 10, Math 10, and Biology 11, so far. I am thinking of...Literary Arts 11, it looks like it would be good for me.
uhh.. Francais Extended Core 10, Exploring Technology. whatever, i'm lost already.

Taryn is helping me out with my choices, she plans on graduating early, frigging honors child =P. Lindsay and I spoke today, luckily. If we hadn't today I probably would have given up because it was stretched on too long.
My sister got to leave the hospital today, finally. They've been there since Friday afternoon. Robyn is healthy, Becky is good except her left side keeps going numb, no one can explain it but she was sent home and if it kicks up again to go to her family doctor.

I'M AN AUNT!

Sat, 17 Apr 2004 18:43:12 GMT

I was at the hospital all night last night, went at 9:00, left at 9:40, went back to the Currie's, wrote, slept until 1, mom woke me up saying becky had called, so we drove to the hospital, it was 5 hours before we heard anything from anyone about their labour. Then Ryan came out crying, so I couldn't help but cry and worry. Turns out she was pushing for 3 hours but needed to have a c-section birth, and they weren't prepared for that. Anyway for the next 2 hours I was worrying like hell, you know me. Finally the Birthing Unit called and said we could see her in an hour and a half. We ate, went back and saw her. HER. My little niece, well, big niece! 9lbs 4 oz. Light brown hair, big hands, cute as a button, except buttons aren't cute so.. well.. okay she's a gorgeous baby! They havn't decided on a name yet, either Kyla-Rae or Ella-Rae. Hickish, I know, but hey.. old fashioned is fun ;)! Plus, you diss my niece, i break your face =D. Haha.
P.S. I forgot my digital, so I will take it in the next time Mom and I run in to the Grace Hospital to see them. =).
P.P.S. Dom you will be the best distant uncle ever! Uncle Dommy.. haha, <3. P.S. I'll let you hear her baby noises if I call from the hospital =).

She got induced!

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 19:25:59 GMT

Finally, it is starting to happen. It seems like it's been so long since they..conceived! But yeah.. Becky is in the hospital, went in for a check up this morning and they put her in the hospital because her blood pressure was up, so they just induced her and when she starts having contractions she is going to call us.. so I can't be on for long. And Dom.. when becky starts having serious contractions at the hospital I'm calling you. I could be there all night, and I will get lonely.
I'm going to have a baby niece or nephew by tomorrow sometime!
Picture post tomorrow, yay.
P.S. this is for you dom, I hope it isn't one of those hermaphrodites, surgery sounds painful.

happy easter.

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 10:27:57 GMT

Today is my sister's due date... now where is that baby? I took a tylenol last night! Dom coached me... I've never taken a pill before, because my throat closes when I try, but I did it. Now if only I could find some Midol somewhere =/. {aunt rose came for a visit, she shipped in this morning.}
Mom gave me moula for easter, a couple days before, but I woke up to a hollow chocolate doggy.(i'm not a big chocolate eater anymore) a teddy, and a card, open le card, inside is a CALLINGCARD. My mom reads my mind sometimes. <3
Happy Easter.
EDIT/
look at this and tell me who.. you think, is you. Which number.

Stolen from xx_tbs_xx
Pick ANY 10 LJ users on your friends list, Without revealing their names say something about (or to) each one of them. Never reveal who is what.

1. You are the most... brave person I know, doing what you have. You're only 15 and you've had a life changing experience.. and you took it and are handling it, without complaining. Props to you. You are also gorgeous may i add =/.

2. You lied to me at the first, maybe not showing me who you were? (hint hint) but i've always admired you, even if you are younger. Keep up with the artistic talents.

3. You are amazing, we have our rough times, but.. it seems to me time heals MOST wounds, hour long phone conversations are addictive;).<3

4. Everytime I see you, you almost reach my height, you've changed a lot recently, but it's good, no one likes a prep. We have good times, and get a natural high off of each other, no one can take that away. BCF, remember?

5. You make me snort when I laugh, and we all know Meaghan doesn't snort. Jesus was here to have your babies, remember? Don't forget me. <3

6. You are beautiful, and you give some-what good advice, although once and a while you should take some of your own. You're my angel as corny as that sounds, remember you can drag me out of class any time you need me. <3 what are ~*BFF*~ for? (trying to sound like one of the cool girls)

7. You.. I thought you were in grade 9, so what, i'm canadian, i didn't know what junior meant. =P. And no, I'm not asian. Take me to a show next time, you go so often.

8. I hardly know you, but I have you on my AIM, and occasionally we talk. You are a lot older than i, but hey, that just means advice from experience.

9. You are a friend of numero 1, I called while you were at her house, I don't know you very well, but someone I am related to talks to you a lot, you're perdy.

10. You sometimes check my LJ but you have a GotDiary instead. I hinted for you to do something which could be life(-style) changing, and you did it, i'm proud.

R.I.P Bailey

Wed, 07 Apr 2004 22:35:36 GMT

My Doggy got hit by a car.. I love you Bailey.. you were the best dog I've ever had. I will never forget you.
You live on Bail, you always will. <3 love and respect.